Life Pt. 2
- Sep 6, 2020
- 3 min read
Alright, so this week has been both good and stressful. It was the second week of classes and I am SO behind. I am a major procrastinator which I hate, but I mean please tell me about a student that doesn't procrastinate. I am getting caught up this weekend so yay, but I am glad that one of my classes is easy, who knew it would be computer programming. Besides drowning in school work, I know that overall life has been overwhelming and interesting. I have had my moments of crying, feeling down, and not sleeping well, but it's fine compared to how I was a month ago. My thoughts have been better, even though I have been anxious at times.
This past Friday, September 4th, I had a great and busy day. In the morning I had a physics quiz that I was terrified for because I knew I should have studied more. But it's okay because I know what to do next time. Then my dad tried to get me out of the house by offering to go look at antique stores, which I love! It was fun then we went to get my eyebrows done cause I really needed a clean up. My dad went with me and actually wanted to get his done, which he has only got done like one other time in his whole life. Mind you, I only get my eyebrows threaded because they look better after and grow a little slower than waxing. He didn't know what to expect, but he did say "If I knew it hurt that bad, I wouldn't have done it." He was sweating and said he could have cried. It was SO funny, I loved it! Anyways, we did a few other errands before heading home. By the time it was 5pm, I was just chilling waiting for my favorite cheesy reality show to start. Then I got a text from my oldest best friend (we have known each other for 14 years) and then my mind EXPLODED. I completely forgot that we were supposed to meet up for dinner. I felt so bad (and I still do), but I will make it up to them. I was still able to see them for a sushi dinner. I love them so much, they are really my second family. Best night I have had in a while. We ended up jamming to music in my car and it was just great. I needed that night so bad, I so appreciate them.
I have been trying to get back to the things I love to do. Weirdly enough, I haven't been able to enjoy music which SUCKS. I think I wasn't able to focus and enjoy the music because my mind was filled with worrisome thoughts. That was for like a month, but now I can listen to music and be able to just sing, scream, and feel. I have always loved singing, but my parents said something really true - they said "I know she is better when she starts singing again." Now, I am not saying that I am 100% better, I am just on the way to being better and the person I want to be. The reason why I mentioned music and singing was because I found a song that describes how I have felt the past two months. It is Before You Go by Lewis Capaldi. I also think it shows how my family and my boyfriend felt "helpless" and that broke me. Not gonna lie, I am very emotional and this song just makes me cry out my feels. Hope you guys like it! :) and I hope to do more of these and they will sound better haha.
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