Life Update!

Alright, I know I haven't posted anything in over a month, but life has been busy and interesting to say the least. The fall semester is coming to a close (thank god!), but I am trying to finish the semester the best that I can. Other than that, everything has been okay. Visiting my boyfriend, getting things done, and looking towards the future.

Unfortunately, I have had something upsetting and heartbreaking happen to me. My beloved family dog, Kobe, passed away on Sunday :( He had some health issues and was older so it was his time. The few days before he passed was tough because he wasn't doing well. Things like breathing and walking were getting difficult. My family and I had to make a decision on what was best for him, not for us. We are just glad he's not suffering anymore :) My sister came home the day he passed and we all say he was waiting for her, because he did hold on for her. He loved being outside in the sun, so on Sunday, he wanted to go outside one last time. This is mind-blowing to me because he knew it was his time and he was so happy. It just seemed like the sun was the light he was about to go to. Soon after, I saw him take his last breath. It was really difficult and I knew I wasn't prepared for it. I was just so glad he went to doggy heaven naturally in our home. It couldn't have been better for us all.

I was in shock that day because nothing seemed real, it just felt like I was in a nightmare. I've been crying for days because he was always there. For 13 years, not a day went by where he wasn't waiting for us when we got home from school or didn't want to eat our food. He was also the cutest dog, I mean look at him. His presence made life easier and the love he had for you was unconditional. He would scratch you or hit your arm/hand with his nose for you to pet him. This dog was so smart too, he had my sister wrapped around his little paw. She would do anything for him. Whenever he wanted to go outside, he would sit right in front of the door and wait or hit the blinds that would make a sound. Same thing when he was hungry which he always was hungry. He would clink his bowls together to let us know it's time for him to eat. We'd hear his nails on our floor anytime he was walking. One of my favorite things about him was that when anyone was crying, he would sit or lay near you to make you feel better. When I was going through the really hard phases of my anxiety/depression, I would sit on the ground cause it made me feel better and he would just come right up to me and loved me. I miss him so much. It's just not the same without him. But he's having so much fun in doggy heaven so it's okay.

Sorry that was a bit depressing, but he deserved the world. All dogs do.

We've all been doing better though and we all have our good days and bad days. Hopefully y'all hug your pets a little tighter today and everyday. We just got to keep on looking forward. Have a good weekend!!

To Kobe: I'll see you soon buddy, I love you so much!! :) 07/07/07 - 11/8/2020